So, another three months has passed by, I’m still alive, and got to go to Hickman Cancer Center today for my transfusion of good drugs. Zometa…or as I kinda like to think of it now, as “Zippity-do-dah Zometa”.
Two years and 10 months out from BC diagnosis, and I’m doing pretty damn good. Lucky me….discovered icky cancer, had good insurance, lots of accumulated sick leave (well…not anymore…) and signed up for the most aggressive treatment options possible, including the Zometa clinical trial. At the time, I had absolutely no reservations about signing on for the trial. And no, it wasn’t about being nice (ha! fooled you!) or advancing research (nice idea, just not why I signed on) but if I’m completely honest about it, I was mostly interested in staying closely connected to an oncologist. I didn’t care what the excuse is/was , as long as I got to sign up for an onco appointment every three months, I was happy.
Oh sure, I read everything and talked to everyone about Zometa, and mostly all the medical people nodded in agreement, “probably worth a try”. And honestly, I was, and still am, willing to do anything to prevent recurrence. And lucky, lucky me…..turns out Zometa maybe really is one of the good cancer fighting drugs.
Last month (12/2011) researchers published results that indicated Zometa was not only helpful in strengthening bones from the damage that cancer treatment inflicts, but also seems to protect against recurrence, as well.
“The benefit persists” long after treatment ends, said Dr. Michael Gnant of Austria’s Medical University of Vienna, who presented his research last week at the San Antonio Breast Cancer Symposium.
Gnant’s study showed women who received the bone drug Zometa were 37 percent less likely to die than women who didn’t. That means that 4 to 5 more women with breast cancer out of every 100 were alive seven years later because of the treatment.
Some cancer specialists are now calling for Zometa to be offered to all patients like those in this study – younger women forced into early menopause by hormone-blocking cancer treatments.
“It’s a new standard of care,” said Dr. James Ingle, a Mayo Clinic breast specialist.
I don’t quite feel like I have my old life back yet, still get tired more easily than I think I should, still have physical therapy issues as well as the compromised immune system and taste buds.
But, I am very cautiously optimistic about the ending of this chapter of my story.
A big disappointment
July 9, 2009Well today was supposed to be chemo #2 day. I had even planned a party tomorrow to celebrate being halfway through “the treatment”. But no, it was not to be. I am so disappointed, I can’t even begin to tell you.
My day began with a consultation with the most excellent Physcial Therapist, Peeta. She is very good, and shortly after beginning my treatment she looked at my chest, specifically the right breast and asked, “why is half of your breast red? I think you have an infection.” I felt alarmed and crestfallen all at once. The right breast is the one with the expander implant in place and had just been expanded yesterday by my plastic surgeon. Awww jeez…and the expansion was not even that uncomfortable yesterday like in previous visits. How could it be infected? Anyways, Peeta completed her PT, gave me a prescription for a compression sleeve to relieve some of the discomfort of the left arm where all the lymph nodes were removed, and sent me on my way, with instructions to show this condition to Dr. Schott, the oncologist.
Both Dr. Schott and her nurse practioner Joan were not in today, so I had a new and diligent NP, Tammy, who took one look at the right breast and pretty clearly said she did not want to take a chance at chemotherapy with even a small potential of an infection. I kind of whined about it, and she asked if it was OK to pull another Dr. in to examine my breast. Hell, I would let the janitor take a peek if he would have said, “Nah…it’s OK!” So of course I said YES, YES bring another doctor in. It took what seemed like a very long time…… I laid there on the table and tried not to cry, tried not to feel sorry for myself, but I felt overwhelmingly sad. Eventually a great big Doctor came in, took one look at what honestly is a very light shade of pink on one half of the breast only, from the vertical scar to the center of the chest, and he quickly said, “no, I don’t think you should do chemo today.” They explained that it was probably only a very slight risk of infection, but if it was an infection having to do anything with the expander implant, then undergoing chemotherapy at that time would only increase the chance of losing the expander implant. After all the work and energy that has been put into that side of reconstruction, it would be a shame to lose it, and go back to square one. They gave me a prescription for antibiotics, and sent me to reschedule all the rest of my my chemo appts.
Of course. They are right. I know they are “erring on the side of caution”. But another week of delay means another week of missed work. Another week further away from being done with chemo. Another week delay of getting some sembelence of my life back.
But I think they are right. But I am so sadly disappointed. I have been looking forward to this day so much. It takes so much energy to plan for chemo, to be “up” for chemo, only to have it taken away. At the end of today, I was going to be halfway done, and now I have to wait another week. And I know it is the right thing to do as I write through my tears. I wish I were mature enough to accept this today, but as with the other difficult things I have experienced lately, I guess it will take a day before I straighten up and stop whining about it. :^(
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